Circle the mountain twenty times, then climb it. Or look at it from your kitchen window while water boils for tea. The notion of oxen sooner than later remains particular. My lungs heat up and my dreams take place at the end of a long tunnel.
Midges, cattails. In the blue distance a pair of deer step patiently off the treeline to browse. Turkeys like dark grey bells on stilts where the field began its slope. The social compact varies from body to body, and there are lots of bodies.
Yet I cultivate a relationship with darkness, and one with narrative, and the two are not strikingly dissimilar. There are gaps in my education, yes – they’re where I do my best thinking. He wanted to write “he wrote while drinking coffee” and so he did. A relative quiet upon waking where one anticipates cacophony can be as disorienting as gunfire.
Going in, going down, going on. Moby Dick bores me and I can’t find my Emily Dickinson. The twenty sentences are like a party I didn’t expect to attend but once there am not entirely disappointed. I do have a hard time listening to people, the way my mind wanders, and my gaze.
Sugar crystals. Maple trees. Pale green acorns which I imagine crushing to a gritty flour. Ultimately it’s futile of course but then what am I talking about.