I dreamed last night that I lived inside a wave - a literal wave of water. It was frozen somehow - not because it was cold but because I was moving at the same pace it was. The effect was stillness. In the wave I was publicly demonstrating an holistic way of living. How to eat, how to grow what you eat, how to regenenerate the soil. It was kin to the 1970s biome we used to drive past in Amherst.
Dan Gallagher was in there with me, and someone else who I knew but could not name. The three of us were making to leave - to step out of the wave back into the world - and nobody believed it could be done, but I knew it could be done, and I was ready to do it. I was the one who was demonstrating, this is the way that you do it.
This is how you leave Eden. This is how you begin the journey home. This is how you bring Eden with you.
As I rose out of the dream, I found myself asking Eric (who used to post at my ACIM blog a lot) "do you understand the distinction between phenomenology, ontology and epistemology?" And then saw with utter clarity that one can have a phenomenological experience but that they have to go slowly when building an ontology with or on it. And I remembered then the gentle insistence of von Glasersfeld, that ontology is not possible and cannot be justified under any circumstances. One can neither argue for the world nor against it.
I lay awake for half an hour beside Chrisoula thinking, is that it? For it seemed so sensible - as if so much confusion arises from trying to force phenomenology into ontological frames, and trying to derive epistemologies from ontologies.
There is an experience of oneness; how shall we talk about it? I mentioned this in passing to Chrisoula hours later and she said, well, didn't the dream answer that?